I Am Love (reflections of a writer) GD 6-7-2011


I had all of these images in my head with You in mind.

I suppose if I would have paid attention to the signs in the beginning I would have accepted things as they were as opposed to how I wanted to see them.

I had formulated all of  these ideas about you, me, we & us.

Nothing I felt inside prepared me for the inevitable.

I remember how my heart would skip a beat whenever I heard your car door slam outside my window.

I had anticipated your arrival the night before, hours before your car pulled into my driveway.

Throughout the day I thought about how we would be spending the evening.

Listening to music.

Watching TV.

Cuddling on the sofa in silence.

Me massaging your neck and back with intensity and focus.

Me rubbing both of your feet to ease the tightness from the long day you spent standing and walking on them.

How I adored you.

You introduced me to pleasures I had long desired to experience.

Lying beside you at night were amongst the most tender moments we shared.

I loved immersing myself in pillow talk with you.

Remember when I asked you if Ringling Brothers was in town because I was their missing clown?

Remember how you reached for me and pulled me into your warmth, and how you consoled me, assured me  that everything was going to be alright?

Then there was that song you dedicated to us by Algebra entitled “At This Time”.

Looking back I know that it was your way of telling me that I needed to just enjoy the moments we were sharing at the time, but it was hard for me not to fall in love with you.

You were the right combination of sex appeal, sensuality, and strength.

Because I had found in you something that I had never found in anyone else I wanted to hold onto you as tightly as i could, and I prayed so hard that you would be the one that I would grow old with.

I asked God if he would make you see what was inside of me so that you would know just how much love I had to offer you.

Letting you go was one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do, yet I knew that if I allowed things to continue without parameters then I would not be fulfilled in the relationship.

Towards the end I felt you rejecting my love and I know that it was because you didn’t want me to love you as much as I did.

The person you were when I met you still existed, but you knew there was no way for you to embrace all we could have been when there was still someone else who had your heart.

I eventually understood that.

I knew that there was no way that I could compete with an unfinished past, therefore the only thing I could do was set you free.

Oh, I was hurt, confused, and angry afterward, but eventually I made peace with things.

I found solace in knowing that you knew how special you were to me, and I am grateful that you allowed me to walk away without trying to string me along.

You were a great lover in my life, and I will never forget you.

There are times when I find myself hoping that our paths would cross again.

That the next time around we’d both be ready to take the journey.

You see…

I am who I was that night when you met me…

I Am Love

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About G. D. Grace of California

After the release of his fifth self-published novel, “Ripped & Ready (season 3)” GD ramped up for a new endeavor in radio, and on September 2, 2010 his first #BlogTalkRadio show premiered. His first two guest were two literary colleagues from two different sides of the tracks — one a former prison inmate-hustler, single father, turned author — the other, an accredited teacher and single father first time author. The intense on-air climate of cultural differences on the show, at one point, became thick enough to slice with a butter knife, however, it was a very successful event. Despite the clash over marketing approaches both authors remained professional and the outcome was a highly entertaining and interesting show. The seasons that followed incorporated talent from all walks of creativity, so in addition to the authors, GD’s guest lineup included poets and recovering addicts, motivational speakers and entrepreneurs, filmmakers and professionals in sports training and health, and also established artists from highly successful television shows, as well as, NAACP & Grammy Winners. Many shows gave us an inside glimpse inside the lives of legends from Marvin Gaye, James Brown, Smokey Robinson, Ray Goodman & Brown, Bruce A. Hawes (extraordinary writer for the Sounds of Philadelphia), Gerald Alston of The Manhattans, The Delphonics, Howard Hewett, and Chris Jasper of the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame recognized Isley Brothers. Legends of literary Stanley Bennett Clay and James Earl Hardy also brought their distinct creative prowess to the show, as did professionals from the Broadway stage. GD’s show eventually caught the attention of World Media and through this friendship many of the legends mentioned above were tapped to be guests on the show. His friend, and often times, mentor, Wayne Barros became an influential part of the legacy that he was creating one show at time. His friendship, love, and direction helped enforce an inner-confidence in GD which allowed him to stretch his producing skills so the show would have an entertaining variety for the live listener and archive listeners. Between the two audience variations the show has been listened to by over 40,000 people. It has been successful beyond GD’s wildest dreams, and as Season 6 approaches, the adrenalin within him increases. He begins assembling the guest list next month in April 2015, and…
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2 Responses to I Am Love (reflections of a writer) GD 6-7-2011

  1. Nice piece GD


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