“Self Worth” (reflections of a writer) GD 10-18-2011

Self worth.  It took a few years for me to actually get it;  if you don’t love yourself enough to expect for friends, family, and people you meet along the way to treat you with respect, then you spend quite a deal of time trying to justify their existence in your life.  The crazy thing about it all is that, sometimes, we get wrapped up in trying to live up to the expectations of the wrong people.  Over time we wind up questioning ourselves and become disenchanted with life.  Life consists of several stages, but the ones I remember the most are youth, mid-life, and older.   I was a foreigner to myself during those first two stages of my life and I often found myself dissatisfied with who I was.  I was always looking for love in the company of others, always needing their acceptance and approval.  I failed to realize that I never needed their acceptance because I was my own, wonderful, beautiful, and spirited person.

It took a stint in rehab to help me understand that, if people like you — really like,  they like you for who you are.  During that span of time in my life I couldn’t embrace how much of a positive impact I had on others.  I never participated in my joy because, strangely, I kept missing it.  Accomplishments, personal achievements; the successes,  large and small — I couldn’t see them.  I was too busy trying to be somebody else for someone else — beating myself up repeatedly for not being enough of this and that.  Then I’d attack my physical appearance — I was too this and I wasn’t like that.  Hell, it was no wonder that I was always questioning myself.  I was living up to an expectation that was being dictated by other domineering insecure people.  I was trying to exceed the superficial mold being crammed down my throat by the media until one day I woke up and found a passion that would whisk me out of follower status and into leader status.

After all of that toil and struggle, those tears and strife, that insecurity and self doubt I eventually found out that I was the person that The Almighty designed me to be.  I walked away from unhealthy relationships, learned to accept my friends and family for who they were, and carved out an existence equipped with the title of “writer”.  Even if I inspired one person, I was participating in my life instead of watching it drift by without question.  This blog of mine, and the books I have written are my way of reaching someone — anyone.  It doesn’t have to be on a mass scale either.  As long as I reach one person, that’s all that matters.  I write out of a love for it.  Hell, don’t get me wrong, I wish I could make some major dough doing it, but if that is not in my destiny then it won’t come to pass.

Today, after three years of struggle, I have managed to land a gig that will allow me to dig myself out of this hole I dug for myself  three years ago.  It is by Faith and Grace that I am still standing.   Even in my worst of times I held on, and if that wasn’t enough to assure me of my strength, then I don’t know what is.

To the person reading this who feels lost.

To the soul reading this searching for their place in this world.

For the spirit broken and desperately praying to see the light.

Hold on.

Embrace those real friends and family who love you when you have nothing, for they are the only ones that matter.

Look deep within to locate that passion and nurture it until it grows.

Even if only one person gets it — that’s one more person that understands who you are.

Trust me — there will be more than one.

This is GD Grace, 5 times self-published author, blog talk radio producer, and leader in progress signing off.

(reflections of a writer)

GD

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About G. D. Grace of California

After the release of his fifth self-published novel, “Ripped & Ready (season 3)” GD ramped up for a new endeavor in radio, and on September 2, 2010 his first #BlogTalkRadio show premiered. His first two guest were two literary colleagues from two different sides of the tracks — one a former prison inmate-hustler, single father, turned author — the other, an accredited teacher and single father first time author. The intense on-air climate of cultural differences on the show, at one point, became thick enough to slice with a butter knife, however, it was a very successful event. Despite the clash over marketing approaches both authors remained professional and the outcome was a highly entertaining and interesting show. The seasons that followed incorporated talent from all walks of creativity, so in addition to the authors, GD’s guest lineup included poets and recovering addicts, motivational speakers and entrepreneurs, filmmakers and professionals in sports training and health, and also established artists from highly successful television shows, as well as, NAACP & Grammy Winners. Many shows gave us an inside glimpse inside the lives of legends from Marvin Gaye, James Brown, Smokey Robinson, Ray Goodman & Brown, Bruce A. Hawes (extraordinary writer for the Sounds of Philadelphia), Gerald Alston of The Manhattans, The Delphonics, Howard Hewett, and Chris Jasper of the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame recognized Isley Brothers. Legends of literary Stanley Bennett Clay and James Earl Hardy also brought their distinct creative prowess to the show, as did professionals from the Broadway stage. GD’s show eventually caught the attention of World Media and through this friendship many of the legends mentioned above were tapped to be guests on the show. His friend, and often times, mentor, Wayne Barros became an influential part of the legacy that he was creating one show at time. His friendship, love, and direction helped enforce an inner-confidence in GD which allowed him to stretch his producing skills so the show would have an entertaining variety for the live listener and archive listeners. Between the two audience variations the show has been listened to by over 40,000 people. It has been successful beyond GD’s wildest dreams, and as Season 6 approaches, the adrenalin within him increases. He begins assembling the guest list next month in April 2015, and…
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4 Responses to “Self Worth” (reflections of a writer) GD 10-18-2011

  1. Wow this is a true testimonial Glenn, You should come share this at our “Make time for God” some of us need these words of encouragement, I know their is yet hope for all of us and that we should never give up. I am glad you did not. Thanks for sharing.

  2. I must express my affection for your generosity giving support to individuals who should have help on this important concern. Your very own dedication to getting the solution around ended up being wonderfully effective and have continuously empowered others just like me to realize their dreams. This important facts indicates so much a person like me and even more to my office workers. Thanks a ton; from all of us.

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